designer . dreamer . lover . daughter . friend

Okay.. I was randomly browsing Facebook when I saw a friend’s friend’s name pop up randomly on the side panel. It caught my attention cos it was….

Anyway it was “Kinda insert_surname_here”.

First thing that came to my mind. Like wth?! Kinda?? Imagine if the surname is “Seow”. And you brought this girl to your boss for recruitment.

“Hi Boss. Meet my friend. She is here for an interview and she is Kinda Seow.”

Wahahahahahaha.

Or. If the surname is Cham.

“Hey, you remember the girl I mentioned to you a while back? Yeah, yeah that one. Please try your best to help her. Yeah, you know? That girl. She is Kinda Cham.”

I’m writing this entry on just another normal night. Wake in front of my laptop, doing some work, relying internet connection via the starhub toggle that Mr J has so very nice helped me with the registration.

It’s like I said, any other normal night. But 8 months down the road I’m beginning to see light. It has been the most traumatising 8 mths in my life. Tho the future is still largely uncertain (but hey, whose is?), I’m utterly glad the worst is over. Throughout this journey, I met pple who are obviously, filled with greed with money, but compassionate pple are also aplenty.

Not that they will ever get to read this space of mine for I so rarely update it now. But still…

To Zen & Valencis, for being the ever supportive superiors in office. For giving me the flexibility @ work so that I can give my best at home. For the consistent belief in me so that my work will only get better. For the reminders, lectures so that I become even better with dealing with clients. For being tolerant when I’m so low..

To Yueming, my partner. You know why I thank you for. Am glad our paths crossed again at such a stage in my life.

To Anthony aka ANTZ……. much love dude.

To Esme for telling me that she will be there if I need a listening ear, tho I didn’t tell you much. Because things were so complex even I had to take baby steps each day. I didn’t even know where to begin everytime you asked me. It was overwhelming.

Some Gakkai comrades.

Am surprise at the number of pple I can thank. I must have kept things really personal.

Last but not least, how can I miss him out?

To my dear for walking the past 8mths with me. I can’t believe as I deal with things that come my way, it is already going to a yr. Where has 2009 gone to? I received the bad news on 31st Dec 08 and life hasn’t been quite the same. When I was sweaty and looking tired from all those moving and shiftings, you were there for me…. sometimes at the expense of meeting up with your friends whom you already don’t see often. And not for happier things, but shifting in rain and such. I can’t believe the past few mths have flew past. For taking my bills to pay when I got to work and have no one to help me. For buying lotsa food for me when you do drop by. For celebrating my birthday when I forgot about it. And for sleeping on the floor when I have to go over your place and do some work. I’m sure there’re more….. but I’m not good at this like most girls. :) I have to let you know I appreciate all these greatly, tho I don’t say.. I’m quite bad at expressing certain things.

I’m picking my life up, slowly but surely for I do not like what I see in the mirror – a broken soul.

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Well, we will never actually get used to them, yeah?

BUT! This post is nothing like the mellow post. I’m feeling good, up and greatly inspired. As Mr J. put it, I will gradually feel better one lah. Haha!

Anyway, seriously, I haven’t been updating/uploading anything worthed reading. But 4 mths ago (wow, that’s a pretty long time), I was tasked to create some concepts for a freelance client, speaking to doctors, introducing a new ailment… only had a few hrs to present the mocks. I still pretty much like the ideas that came to my mind when I was with my notepad on the bus home.

Sidetracking, Kayly you inspired AND reminded me that treads are meant to be created. Besides all our plans, I’m really looking forward to marketing tradeshows overseas with you!

There’re so much I want to learn….. I want to constantly challenge my mind. But I have to do them one by one. I was hot-headed and want to achieve this and that in the shortest time. What I’ve learnt is that there is barely anything to gain but painful lessons. I’m now more level-headed, and knowing that having a plan will enable me to progress in a direction I most desire. In the past month I met people who inspired me so much, noteably Terrence Tan of you-know-where. His words were deeply imprinted in my mind and it was funny how I was doing the things he was doing when he was a young chap (he still looks amazingly young). I do regret not asking more though. I was just at a loss of what to ask!

All things in life has its time. Antz once told me, “There is no need to rush babe.”

Oh well. What was it like, being a kid?

Carefree…….~ I miss running in the rain on the way home from school. My mum was yelling at me to get back under her umbrella. But I simply just…. want to enjoy the rain.

I was 7.

I failed my spelling test once more. 2/10. Didn’t study again. And when I failed, I approached my dad to sign my spelling book for he wouldn’t know I had failed.

My dad was 37. I was 8.

I miss.